Yesterday I had a little bit of a meltdown.
Thankfully I have a lot of really amazing friends to talk me out of my funk.
I'm really thrilled about all of the changes that I've made. Eating better feels good and I have no desire to go back to the way things were before...but seeing the numbers on the scale going in the wrong direction is the ultimate form of torture.
If I was "cheating" it wouldn't bother me because there would be an explanation that makes sense to me...but on paper, I'm doing everything right. I'm following the plan. Since everyone thought the issue might be that my body was going into "starvation mode", I tried the "Wendie plan" this week. I used up all of my regular points and a bunch of the extra points as well. I did it eating mostly fruits and vegetables, with healthy proteins and carbs thrown in, and I've been drinking lots of water. I did have some KFC one day because I didn't have time to go home and cook myself dinner and that was what I was craving at the time. However, I had small portions and stuck within my points for that day.
I have also been making sure to get up and move as much as my schedule allows me to. I haven't done any real workouts, but I've been walking a lot and going for hikes when I am able to, and not just sitting around the house like I used to do.
I'm fully committed to staying healthy. Not just because I want to lose weight, but because it feels good and because I want to really live. I want to see and do things that won't be possible if I continue on the path that I was on. This isn't a diet. This is me changing the way I live my life.
For once in my life I feel motivated and excited about what I'm doing. That's why it's so frustrating to not see the results that I was anticipating.
This morning I had my official weekly weigh in. I gained 1.2 lbs. NOT what I wanted to see, but I'm not going to dwell on it. This is a new week. A clean slate. This week I'm not going to worry about the scale. I'm going to concentrate on how I FEEL. I'm going to listen to my body and make choices that feel good. Period.
The numbers on the scale will move eventually.