Last week I allowed myself to have a little meltdown. I gave myself one minute to cry, and then I wiped away the tears, got up, and pushed forward with a new outlook.
This week I decided not to think about the scale, or formulas, or systems...I decided to just listen to my body and get it done one choice at a time. I ate what felt good. I didn't deprive myself of anything, but ate thoughtfully.
Guess what? IT WORKED! I lost 5.6 lbs!
My other goal this week was to begin focusing on my physical fitness...because this isn't just about getting thin, it's about getting healthy. I want to be able to play with my daughter and nieces. Really play. I want to go for hikes with my brother and sister and not worry about slowing them down. I want to feel good in my body.
So I continued walking as much as possible, and I also purchased the Weight Watchers workout DVDs. I considered going to the YMCA where I have a membership to use their facilities and equipment, but then I realized that I would be entirely too self conscious there. At this point I'm far more comfortable working out at home by myself.
The DVD's didn't arrive until the end of the week, but I couldn't wait to try them out once they were here. I started off with the beginner basic stretch routine, and was pleased that I was able to do it all without any issues. However, when I moved on to the full cardio stretch I found that the same could not be said. I did my best to keep up for as long as I could, but I'm just not there yet...back to basics.
I also tried out the basic cardio workout. Got through that no problem so I tried the express workout as well. Again I discovered that there were a few things that my body is just not ready to do yet, but I was able to find other ways to continue through until they went into the next sequence of movements.
I'm a bit disgusted with myself for allowing myself to get this out of shape...but I can't change what has already happened, I can only make better choices going forward. And that's exactly what I'm going to do.